Disillusioned

What if I suddenly realise that this is not neccesarily the right career path for me?

Am I really in the right position to feed hungry minds with knowledge that even I myself have trouble with sometimes?

Do they want a mere child to lead them into the real world?

What do you do in these bouts of disillusionment? Should you just drift away and drown in all this negativity? Should I think about why I chose this field in the first place?

Is financial gain worth all this?

Is financial gain all I am interested in?

What does one do in these bouts of disillusionment? Since when am I this cowardly?

Since
I
realised
that
it
is
not
all
about
me.

It is also about them.

God, you know I have nothing, I pray you will give me strength.